Dammit...

Well, today I was at funtea having another one of those talks with Hang, Elizabeth, and Phuong was there this time. And the topic of the dance tomorrow came up... I said i wasn't going. And then I found out Kenny's going... and he asked Kirsten, the 8th grader. I guess I feel jealous and disappointed at the same time. For obvious reasons, I'm jealous. I'm disappointed in him because I know he doesn't even like Kirsten. I just want to bitch at his so called "friends" for the way they treat him. They force him to do shit he doesn't want to do and he lets them because he wants to be accepted by them. I care too much about him.. fuck dammit. This is actually the main reason why I don't want to go to the dance tomorrow... I don't wanna be there during a slow dance and see something I might be upset by. I'm just thinking right now that that should be me. And he's skipped 3 of our youth program meetings before and only now do i find out that it's because myky and henry have been forcing him to stay home to webcam with them and kirsten. Also while i was at funtea I saw taejin, we waved, he came in to the store, we talked, he gave me a hug and left. later he came back and it was just... awkward. He was really shy and everything and he's only shy around girls that he likes and i'm just like... fml. The guy I was into just walked into the store I was in to ask me for a hug and to talk to me -_-